/sci/bros, I've been lurking here for months and picking up little bits of advice and motivation, but it's just not working. I spent my entire fucking first year of uni doing nothing. Absolutely nothing. I can't cope with online classes. I can't retain information through a screen. I just log into my classes, mute the Zoom window and piss my time away on 4chan, discord, youtube or league of legends all day. Every day since December. I reckon I've submitted about 25% of the assignments I was given, and only half of them I put real effort into.

My professors gave me several second chances but I squandered all my opportunities to come back from a bad start because it just doesn't feel real to me. It feels like I've plugged myself into an online simulation of university. My classmates are little more than usernames on a screen. My professors told me to organise study groups with my classmates if I'm struggling with anything, but I almost regret picking my course because all of them are aspie faggots who can't hold a conversation for longer than 15 minutes. I feel alone. I'm not the only one, but I feel like a soulless robot drifting down the river of time. My professors are email addresses who I haven't met in person.

I'm not expecting any miracles. I've settled on repeating the year and making an honest effort this time, but it's the middle of exam season and I'm cramming for subjects I don't know anything about. I'd be lucky to even pass. At least showing up and failing is better than not showing up, right?

Where do I go from here, /sci/? Have I passed the point of no return?