>>13056659You have a point. I'm 28, I feel the same way. Unfortunate for me, my psychosis started when I was 21, so up until now it's a big blur. Maybe I forget I've aged. That's what I feel, what you say. Learning makes me feel more alive than going out partying. Partying is soulless to me now. It's just cup to mouth and flinging of buzzwords. That's all.
I hope in my new state of mind, I can be happy learning and enjoying the company of others. I wonder if friends is a thing of the past now. Other than work colleagues, older adults see their few friends once in a blue moon, over a meal or something.
Shit, I've not got to that state have I? I'm clueless to where I stand societally/socially/biologically at 28 because of my intense psychosis since 21.
I know one thing, I can't handle life without it having depth, details, meaning, that learning can give.
Any late 20's or early 30's, those who didn't derange themselves with drugs to psychosis, and kept a normal life, how are you now with your life, with yourself and others? What did the transition from say 21 to 30 go like? My life from then to now has been highly demented, no nuances in my memories. I just wonder what it is natural to feel now at my age. I confuse age with mental illness at times.
