>>13049800When ego death actually happens all the built up assumptions, feelings, wants, fears, aversions, etc. that constitute the idea of "you" and make all the time amd experiences up until that point something identified with and invested in gets cut off. So before you might worry about losing your job or getting cancer and you might take pride in the talents you have for playing the guitar or figuring out programming tasks, but when ego death happens it's like there's now a detached body sitting there with no connection to these ideas or the past moments that make up that life.
And it's more than just an abstract thought to have this happen like someone reading this might try to imagine because there's an actual experience of no longer being any of those things. There's a sense of amusement in how minutes earlier you were so caught up in the self story and deeply felt good or bad depending on how much your wants were being fulfilled or how much your aversions were not successfully avoided, yet now all of those things were like some fictional character's issues that don't matter at all. And every moment of your life the "you" experiencing things isn't really connected to the "you" of every previous moment except to the extent this "self" story is maintained and not seen as the manufactured set of assumptions it really is.
With a real ego death experience there is such a distinct cutting off of present experience from the past beliefs and habits that you could find out you're literally dying and no fear would accompany that knowledge because there's a body and its sensory experiences left but not the sense of self that would normally cause fear over that body dying and those experiences ending.
