God is real. Yknow how you might have some atheist perspective of like "if god is real and cares about my belief in him why cant he just tell me directly 'hey fucker im real you better start believing'" well yea turns out sometimes god does just that. I mean not with English language, but showing you something from the heavens which proves within your own experience that god exists, without a doubt.
It seems that God only needs a signal from you that you seriously are interested in figuring out spiritual truth, if you are just complaining and just want shit for yourself, you'll be left to your own devices until you figure it out.