>>12961588This is probably true. Anon feels shame and inadequacy, anon desires to rgeress back to when he could get attention by that means, telling himself maybe he could change it back then and be different in the present. PErhaps desires to punish a previous self for inadequacy.
>>12962855I know this is basically true, which is why I don't even bother. Too destroyed in early childhood, and then repeatedly thereafter. I went to sleep destroyed, I woke up even worse.