>>12876523I just moved cities a lot. It was really stressful in CA trying to get a job. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia and got put on the dole and I pretty much just spend every year outside the US. When I have time all I do is study because it's all I enjoy doing.
The moving is a part of the unspecified psychosis so I traveled to France to join French foreign legion, I got kicked out of selection, moved to CA w friends who were homeless and I bounced between them while changing jobs every month sometimes city. I got tired of the stress of everything and somehow snagged a job I was able to keep for almost a year until I got on the dole. Antidepressants were bad for me at first and put me deeper in the hole.
I just got tired, I don't pretend to control my symptoms or my situation.