>>12854481The past is the past, you can't change that, you can only move forward and do the best with the cards you have.
I understand depression as a negative feedback effect; something bad happens to you, so you feel awful, this causes other things in your life to slip, which makes you feel worse, which causes you to slip further ect ect.
You need to break and ultimately reverse this cycle, and then after that you need to re-enforce your life to stop it from being unstable and prevent it happening again.
You need to build up habits that raise your mood and prevent you from doing things that lower your mood.
Every day get out of bed, have a shower and get dressed, have breakfast and go for a 30 minute walk.
This will make your body properly awake and help stop you from going back to bed.
Get on top of your sleep, read a book for an hour before bed, try to make it so that you only use your bedroom; and especially your bed, for sleeping.
Try to do an hour of exercise a day, this really helps with sleep. If you aren't fit this can just be walking.
Set up a schedule for chores to prevent things from going to shit and being forced to do lengthy deep cleaning.
Clean your room lol.
Prepare food in bulk and eat three meals a day. Diet is mostly common sense: make sure you get veggies and enough protein, Don't binge sugar, mix things up every now and then, fish is very good.
IMO unless you know what you are doing you shouldn't go completely abstinate on carbohydrates, you need the energy, just make sure it's starches and not sugar.
Talk to someone you know every day, if you don't know many people talk to your family.
After you have the basics down and you have some stability, you can tackle the bigger, long term problems that made you depressed in the first place.
Whether it's being overweight, anti-social, career or education failure, family trouble ect. You are going to be much more able to solve these with a good foundation.