I'VE SAT HERE FOR THE PAST FEW HOURS WANTING TO DIE RIGHT HERE AND NOW, BUT I FUCKING CANT.
I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO FUCKING DIE BUY MY FUCKING BODY JUST WON'T LET ME. I FEEL LIKE I'M A FUCKING HOSTAGE IN MY OWN BODY AND I CAN'T GET THAT FREEDOM I DESIRE.
LIKE I WAS NEVER THE ONE PULL THE STRINGS.
I KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO DO IT. IT'S NOT EVEN PAINFUL I'VE CUT MY ARM THROUGH ONCE AND IT DIDN'T HURT. the nerves get severed or something.
I didn't die that day.
and I still can't today.
is quantum immortality real? I thought it was just pop sci cringe.
is there medicine to trick my brain into letting me do it? please science how do I die?!