>>12797876Anon I feel for you, I've been there, and I know how demoralizing it can be, but you have to keep moving forward, and push yourself.
I started forcing myself to go to office hours and talk to my TAs and classmates if I didn't understand anything, and I would stay there until I understood it. And eventually I did understand it, and I got slightly better, and more confident. Suddenly, I could manage my course work, tests, projects, and everything else.
You have to put in the work Anon, as hard as it is to start. Once you get the ball rolling, you will look back on those long days of studying and work and realize how productive they were, and how they really weren't that bad.
Please do this, godspeed.