You're asking for help, doesn't really seem like you want to die. Doesn't matter what country you are from for 500 dollaroos in crypto you can buy pento from mexicans easily. And a few more bucks for the anti vomit medication.
Have fun dying like an old dog. In humans, a minute or two after swallowing a lethal dose of this stuff will cause your lungs to stop functioning before the rest of your body does. It's not as painless like it is written about on most places on the internet. It's romanticized somehow. They removed the videos on youtube that showed the whole process of eldery dying on it. Now there's only a few videos left and the moment after they swallow it it's censored for being too graphic. If you watched any pre youtube deletion the old people seemed like they were choking, foam came out of their mouth and their heads turned all red. Doesn't seem like a fun way to die, shotgun to the head is probably far less painfull just messy.
Honestly the only way I'm commiting suicide is strapped on an angola gay nuke or a rocket going straight into our sun.