>>12774331I'm 19. With rare expections (my last good dream was 3 or 4 months ago) every night of sleep is torture to me. I don't have nightmares all the time, but all of my regular dreams are extremely unsettling.
Footbridges are precarious and dangerous, I get myself into threatening streets and buildings, I'm having trouble in university, people display irrational behaviour, places have weird auras, I get late for everything, and there's always this weird feeling of anxiety. Among other problems.
The worst thing about my dreams is that they're always uncanny. This probably had to do with the fact that the world where my dreams take place mirrors the city in where I live, although with a good amount of changes. If I'm in neighbourhood X, my memories about that place will be a mix of real memories and memories I have of that place from other dreams. This contributes to an uncanny feeling, where I'm constantly feeling as if there was something wrong. And, of course, I will be remembered of terrible experiences from nightmares I've had taking place there. Just walking on campus or using public transport can be an extremely uncomfortable, and don't even get me started on the fucking buses. I hate dream buses with every centimeter of my being.
The worst part? Any dream, even a good one, might unadvertedly turn into a nightmare at any time. I turn around a corner while having a normal conversation, and there is a man with a gun waiting for me. Or I randomly spot some dude on the other side of the street, and he start chasing me at a surreal speed with a knife. Or I just end up, AGAIN, in one of those cursed debug room-loking places and I get stuck there with whatever the fuck is waiting for me.
I just grew used to it.
