I have the 'tism. All kinds of stimuli add to my anxiety levels until I explode into a full-blown panic attack.

Usually, I took diazepam when that happened. It's a very nice drug. You take it, and you feel sleepy, your muscles tickle. You fall asleep, you wake up and then feel like the fucking Buddha for 12 hours.

My psychiatrist was horrified by this drug abuse, so she gave me clonazepam. And it's totally different. You take it and feel like a total normie: zero anxiety but zero high. But the worst thing about this is that IT MAKES YOU ASEXUAL.

I fucking hate this. Not only is my penis dead; I don't feel attracted by women anymore. I look at a coffee picture and I feel absolutely nothing, like if I was looking at a hairy man. Have you ever heard about how people with amputated organs will still feel them after they have dissapeared? This is exactly what I feel with my dead dick. I feel like phantom erections. It's so gross.

I know most of you will say this is a blessing in disguise, but I like women, and I like that I like them. This feeling is very traumatic.

Would you quit this shit? Would you rather be an asexual normie or a sexual turboautist?