>>12761362I know you didn't inted this as a shitpost, and so understtand, i dont intend this as an insult.
You sound like an edgy teen. What i mean by this is you seem to think people, and by extention relationships or even family are distractions, without which you can achieve more.
Understand however, that you are a human, with human needs, and your brain works optimally when said needs are met. You need certaine amount of glucose and oxygen and carbon dioxide etc etc in your blood. Similarly you also need the organic chemicles your body produices/releases as a resault of human contact. Masturbating is a false friend, it will release the wrong chemicals. To function optimally you need a girlfriend. One who understands you and whatever ambition you have. One who will suport you, and not get in your way. Such a relationshim amy come about organicly, as people in similar situations, celleagues, coworkers, might have a beetter understanding of your situation.
A litlle anectdote to finish us out. I too am rather ambitious. Full academic scolarship, networkig with the department head, doing research before i have to, to get an edge over others, home projects to get some easy early publications out of, and taking advanced classes in whatever subject has advanced labs.
In one of said advanced labs i met a similarly ambitious girl. We worked on projects together, as the others were too lazy to do them properly. We have been together for 6 months now, and my productivity has never been higher.