>>12760664The worst part is that when it’s your own family, they convince you that this is your fault. You’re the problem. Not them, oh no, they could never be anything but the perfect parental specimens.
I can see how this has effected me. First through being bullied by my parents, second by being bullied at school, and last by being abandoned by friends and family as I get older and older. Why even try anymore? It’s clear my life is destined to be one of lonesome and poverty.
But the truth is, my life isn’t destined to be that way. With enough effort and time I can do anything I want, in a world where every second without investing loses you thousands of future moneys, in a world where everything is a race to succeed before others do. So even with enough effort, will I ever have the time to be something I want to be?
And that’s when it hits you. There is no hope. There is no future. There’s just the now, which is equally insufferable as all the possible futures you can imagine - or maybe this is the best it’s ever gonna be, and the future only holds worse for you.
And then, you go for the rope.
