>>12702621that you even want to end your life in the boring way speaks volumes.
Why not just get high as fuck on heroine.
God is looking for more Heroine users.
It'd be the best way to OD, because your mind would send you all the way to heaven beyond imaging, an Elysian field of poppies and flowers, a rainbow of bliss fractally exploding through the mind's eye before crashing down in a satanic hell with a vomiting fit, leaving a cold dead corpse on disgrace to your family to clean up after you on the one hand, but the high you'd experience would be one of the pillars upon which God will base reality moving forward and you would touch God in a way few mortals ever get to.
Whilst you pray to the god of the East (Mental success), you seem to have forgotten that there are Gods of South (daily success) , West (Familial success) and North (Spiritual success.
If the God's of the East aren't answering, you either aren't asking hard enough or with enough conviction, or have come off balance from the epicentre in some other way. Perhaps chasing the East too hard, or a hearts desire to chase the west instead?)
