>always mediocre grades
>keep telling myself i will start studying hard and do better
>just bombed another exam after putting in shit effort as usual

i guess im just not that passionate, but if i dont do well academically i have zero value as a human being so i gotta get my shit together at some point. i think i need to do a dopamine reset and not allow myself access to distractions for a while, and probably i shoulder try jogging and meditating too. hope it wont be too miserable