I don't know what to do anymore. People disgust me. There's no amount of information or distraction that can save me from the toils of life. Uncertainty of the future, having no control over anything, now that is a real nightmare. I could die tomorrow and never get the chance to live in a heaven like bliss when the singularity comes, then I would be stuck in an endless loop of suffering. I often put myself in the shoes of others, then I realize we're all living a hell. All my suffering is from my stupid brain, it's all subjective. I just want it to end, but there will never be an end. Suicide will not fix this. I used to be optimistic that suicide could fix my worldly problems, but that isn't the end. I wish death was the end. The only salvation would be the singularity, that is the only salvation for life. The singularity is the only salvation from eternal damnation. There is the God of the universe and then there is the God within the universe. The singularity will be the God within the universe. The God within the universe will be humanity's salvation. Only from eternal damnation can the birth of salvation be conceived.

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