>be me
>Physicsfag
>first year goes smoothly, more or less
>didn't make any friends, and the people I started "hanging out" with stopped talking to me after making new friends, but I didn't care, I was there to learn
>going to classes, taking notes, going to labs
>every 3 weeks I have to go back to my hometown, 5 hours, and fix my braces, which I was wearing for the second time
>after a while notice that for every 3 weeks I miss 1
>notes missing and have nobody to get any from
>decide to stop going and read the books myself
>start falling behind
>ony do the labs and a class per semester because I'm reading multiple 1kpg textbooks for each class, like an autist
>things happen
>get sick, lose exams
>this happens multiple times, mostly staying in hospitals
>still have the braces
>end up overweight, friendless, and with failed classes in the double digits
>take off the braces last year
>after tons of inactivity my efforts go to waste and I don't score passing grades
>decide to fix things this semester
>lose two months getting mouth surgeries because my back teeth have weird roots
>spend them in pain, with headaches and nausea
>try and study
>one month remaining
>too tired
>time passes
>Electronics exam tomorrow; haven't studied at all
>now writting an email telling them to delete me from the list
I see no point in "showing up" tomorrow and then turning in nothing. We basically have 20 minutes for each exercise, and they're giving us tougher stuff since they assume everyone will cheat. My question is, where do I go from here? I have Electromagnetism I in 2 weeks. Can it be done if I study night and day? I'm tired. I don't want to be a failure anymore. I actually like studying, it's just that after all these failures I'm too afraid to start. I'm 24 this July. I'm out of time and I'm from a Yuropoorean shithole. I have no connections.

What do I do now? What do I do next? Do I study or speedrun for a passing grade and try to graduate? What then? I need some help /sci/...