>>12593482>Mine is very sweet and nice to me.I thought so. You and
>>12594618 are luckers!
>Does your effort pay off on average?Let's see some stats. Almost half of the courses at PhD level I took until now had more than 2/3 of the final grade based on conventional tests (some, more), and I think I came close to giving my all on those, unfortunately couldn't get As (all Bs). Those are one of the hardest there, most people agree. And (fortunately?) they aren't 100% related to AG. In another almost half of courses, the grading was hybrid in terms of exercise lists and tests, they had tests based on lists of exercises given beforehand, I got As. The rest were entirely based on exercise lists, got As too.
I rate not exceptional, but with potential to get somewhere between mediocre and a good (not "very good", just "good"). Ofc, weak indicatives.
>I think your demon is trying to help youMaybe I sounded completely antagonistic or disagreeable towards my demon, but it's really not the case. He is a part of me, in fact there are positives in having this. It makes me hunt for problems, mistakes, prevent or prepare to worst case scenarios. I can't proceed completely without him, I must know all my wounds and look them naked and clearly, every detail. Problem is when I see more than there is there.
There's this widespread idea of "success iff great confidence, self-steem, etc", and while I think there's a minimum necessary, there are counter-examples, people that tend to be often pessimistic/uncertain/worried and won't just believe they can pull shit off. Like Knuth, he said in an interview that he started to shine during uni because he got so afreid of failing courses that he'd channel the fear into completely solving books, books, and more books. These are exceptions, but they exist, and I like to hear about them because it motivates me. I don't have to completely change into someone I currently am not.
I think you may also think/behave in similar ways.
