that's my transition, when I was a child I was very curious about religion and read all kind of crazy stuff.
as I grow up the absurdity and contradictions made me atheist like most people.
finally, the more I learned about science the more I am convinced about existence of an architect of the universe.
of course it's not a kind of god that would worry about humans. religions are still stupid.
I even suspect there can be multiple architects of different parts of the universe.