>>12592898the dreamworld has evolved advanced countermeasures against my conscious input. I used to lucid dream once a week. not anymore. the reality checks that would make me aware simply do not work anymore.
I will give you an example. I used to be able to lucid dream by becoming aware that the dream is a dream when the light switch failed or when the text I was reading was gibberish. neither of these happen anymore. physics remain consistent and the text is actually legitimate and on topic.
but I will tell you something very interesting that I personally believe that every person experiences but no one realizes it. I caught my subconsciousness designing the dream before the dream itself. it was me, sitting on the ground, moving items on a hologram of the environment of the supposed dream that's about to come, and I was thinking of every single step that would play out. where I'd go, how the dogs would ambush me, how I would have to climb up the wall. the scenery, the terrain - everything.
I still remember it crystal clear, how I was actually shaping the land with my hand and I remember how I was able to access the full capacity of my logic, but the person accessing it was not me. I somehow became lucid during this process and a second later I was awake. that's how I remember it, because I spontaneously became lucid during it.
it was very interesting to see this "pure" version of me, what felt like a cold psycho who's completely liberated of any anxieties or flawed emotions, who simply sat there and calmly assembled a theater for myself. but not just any theater. it was one that was supposed to punish me with a nightmare and teach me something.
I have experienced this a couple more times throughout my life. this has changed the way I think of dreams and I really wish that I could somehow connect to this person and ask him what the fuck is he even doing. but I can't. I just wake up instead. he doesn't want me to interfere.
