I have exams in july, I finished high school, got my exams at at my language and biology but failed at math and this year I can retake the exam at math but I fucking hate math. It's not that I cannot learn it, I'm capable of it, I was the best in the 10th grade but because of a few bad friends I didn't keep studying and fucked the exam, it's not like I was going in 2020 at college because I hate online classes and always intended to do it in 2021 but I'm fucking scared, I want to succeed, I try to learn but fail because I have this hatred for math, it's boring to me. Please help, give me some advice. I'm 19 right now, 20 in a few months.