>>12559896If you still have your genitals, stop doing the mtf thing. You have austism, therefore you have a diminished capacity for ego. "Masking" entails the creation of false selves, just like the narcissist, but their basis and ho they play out is different (lack of need for supply, greater emotional range). You view the feminine state as disarmed or "null", but you're not female, you're an alien watching another species. The trans thing is a trap for predators to prey on your desire to give in to castration anxiety and feeling like you're not good enough to ever assert yourself.
Second, take NAC and vitamin C. Clean up your diet. Exercise. Make sure your mineral levels are good, especailly magnesium. Eat Brazil nuts for selenium. Only you know the other ways you need to work on yourself. Don't give up Anon.
Also, weed doesn't cure narcissism, it just temporarily deactivates dissociative machinery and prevents you from controlling your inner world. Thereby, it destroys the false self, for a time. If you smoke the ganja and feel like you're 5 years old again, that quite possibly means you were traumatized and learned to disguise yourself. However it alone does not cure narcissism. Narcissism is really its own deal, to my knowledge you can't cure narcissism because the narc's true self is so severely damaged, shrunken, and maldeveloped, that they can't ever fully cast off the false self without being destroyed by an unobstructed view oif the endless void within. ie, they finally see that they have no reflection and are empty inside, and it destroys them completely. (Narcissistic mortification follow by collapse)
