>>12560494no u
>>12560572>Yeah. I need to pass in order to officially dive in research.In that case, good luck!
>>12560572>You can see here how often I misspell wordsI thought you were just drunk. But yeah, now I see it in a different light. Do you know any cause for it?
>But I trust you relate a lot with having (or having had) socializing issues.Oh yes. Autism, insecurity and shyness.
>I don't have much trouble with bureaucracyGood because you will probably have to fill a myriad of forms WHEN (not if) you have passed your exam and get started with stuff.
>It's a game I have to play anywayI'm not sure if it's that bloody in maths as it would be in, say, economics, but in some fields the contest for the professor's seat is a real game of thrones. Nevertheless, it will require a lot of theatre to move forward. Not a surprise, though. Our social life is a collection of rituals, and increasingly so the more exclusive things get.
>I became more convinced that I can find worth elsewhere in these last few yearsGood! Then I believe you will not crumble under pressure. I can tell you already that you will be stuck, you will pursue bad ideas, you will see weeks and months go to waste, all that when you do research. If your worth was completely determined by your progress, that would be when you'd feel very very very bad.
>Did your opinion change? What sort of possibility are you imagining?Nope. I just don't think I have anything to offer to that world. I don't want to take resources away from people more competent than myself, nor do I want to live far away from my loved ones. No back up plan, though. I don't know. I have 1½ years of funding left to change my mind or figure stuff out.
>>12560582Trying to explain why not while also trying not to fall asleep, yet you are correct.
>>12561187Nicorette-Pall Mall thm:
>100% of smokers die 
