I fucking hate it so much bros. I hate knowing every single one of my actions is fake and that I'm fundamentally just a smarter monkey. I hate being subject to impulses, experiencing pain, needing to socialize, feeling the need to have kids even though it is unreasonable and immoral to bring anyone to this rotten world. I hate being easily manipulable.
I want to leave this fucking body. I want to have actual control over my actions. I don't even know what brought me to write this. Cybernetic brains capable of being controlled by consciousness can't come soon enough.