>>12508709I have never looked at this as a job, I love to talk to people more than anything, I spent so much time online trying to analyse random people, and I am pretty great at it, I can break down anyone because people who don't tell the truth contradict themselves, a lie is unselfish, while the truth is always selfish, so its easy to drive someone into admitting by themselves their contradiction without them even realising what they did for a few seconds, I can deconstruct anyone, because I deconstructed myself a lot for the past 3 years.
>>12508924Yes, I arrived at the conclusion that everything is absolutely subjective, that the world view is made up of base assumptions generating more and more complex assumptions about the world, but if you try to question why you think what you think, and keep questioning the reason to every why, you eventually end up realising your world view at its root has no foundation, that you just accepted the most core assumptions to be fact because they help you survive, to continue your current state of existence, i.e life.
>>12508982I have ADHD like hyperactivity when I am bored (which is most of the time), I started to smoke weed because when I became high, thats when I felt like a normal person would, it helped me relax, and the pleasure it brings helped counteract my shit family conditions, I know better than anyone that weed is pure cope, short term gain, long term loss. Its not about the weed, how I am built, is the issue, as I have been an inconsistent mess who can't feel shit for most of my life. Since a kid I have been unable to associate with anyone but myself. I only know 2 people who I consider like myself, who understand me, and one was tested for his iq and his result was 165, the other one i personally think is even smarter but never had a test.
They both suffered the same things as me, and I helped them deal with it, I said things to them no one ever did, understood them like I was them, and they like me.
