Love math, but not a genius

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Reading all.about gauss and others while I struggle understanding basic concepts make me suicidal.

I don't even crave sex anymore i just uniornically want intelligence.

I feel like an ape, i am also ethnic, so seeing how obly whites wnd sometimes asians are the smart ones makes me feel like racists are right.

I really envy math geniuses, i could used math so much.

Inb4 just study bro, i don't want to, i use primitive math from scratch cause using advanced math would be like an ape using a laptop.