Oh my fucking god i am fucking sick of math anxiety, i hate it so much, when i am in class and learning something i have no problem, but when i have to fill in what i missed on my own, i just fucking can't do it. I zoned out the last few lectures and now i have to learn all of it on my own and it is so frustrating and irritating and just bullshit. I just want to have all A's my final high school year but math literally drains all my energy. Is the way school teaches math garbage, are stereotypes about math being hard to blame with them being reinforced everywhere, or am i just a retard. I'm not even bad at math i just have such a horrible relationship with the subject. Help me