I always wondered how high the probability of being born as a conscious lifeform actually is. And the answer is always: it goes towards zero. The old saying that you only have one shot at life and you actually hit the jackpot and are born as a conscious one, even an INTELLIGENT one able to understand your place in the world and the universe is so fucking slim considering what actually has to happen for it to emerge. Its just mind-boggling impossible.

Imagine all the possible lives, or better consciousnesses, NEVER being born. All the things that actually have to happen for you, as of now, existing. You cant trace it back just to your parents meeting and fucking, you have to trace it back to literally life existing at all. And even in between, theres major random events that altered evolution on this planet massively (Dinosaurs going extinct as the dominant species on this planet for example) Now how frequent might life in the universe even be? If you all add up all this randomness, the chances of you, right now, reading this text as a human being are so small, they might not even exist at all.

So...im slowly getting used to the thought that this is infact a simulation just for ME!