>>12415812Are you trying to get insulted on 4chan as some kind self-flagellation?
You're going to get rejected and fail at stuff throughout your entire life, and there will always be someone more gifted than you at whatever you care about. It doesn't mean you're retarded, and it doesn't mean you can't achieve the things that you want to achieve. No one gets what they want 100% of the time. Focus on what you can control, and if you want to achieve advances in academia, focus on being creative and playing with the concepts that you know from an early age –I wish I had more. Grinding is not everything.