>>12417217Never helped. The only time I refused was in having the cervical and facial structures mapped with cone beam CT. I was already in enough pain enough of the time that I felt just existing was too fragile, since change could only mean getting worse, I didn't want anything to change. I left, no one stopped me or said anything otherwise.
I spent my entire life taking sole responsibility for everything and anything. I told myself there are two things, self and environment, and you only have any degree of control over one of them. If either one is not as you want, how could it be anything other than my fault, and my problem? Of course no one would help, guide, or question me, I'll just be left to do whatever I need to do, and meet whatever fate awaits, that's just how it works. For me at least. My role in the script.
I was wrong. I do regret that.
