Hey bros... How is everything going?

I want to give up! I fucking hate doing math! This shit is too hard for me I really thought I was smart and can grasp basic concepts but this college calculus is hard :(

What do you usually do to cope? Do you just give up and take a break? Do you just man through it and work it out? I have honestly no easy answer and I am failing calculus because of it.

With this whole covid thing I have literally done nothing but wake up, stare at a monitor for 8 hours writing bullshit from bullshit teachers and going to sleep. That's all I have done, if this is what the life of a real mathematician/engineer is please just tell me to quit while I'm ahead.