Hello everybody.
I just realized while talking on this board that I reached a manic state. I am pretty lost on people to talk to so I go here. I am math undergrad and taught myself a lot of math by high school.
I don’t like it like this. Though, I realized I also forgot to take medication, lamictal, for past days, and when I take it I get depression.
I like pure math and hated high school because I couldn’t focus on classes, I would do amazing in my math but get Ds in Spanish and Cs in English. I made it to Calculus 3 and linear algebra by senior year and got a 95% on my Calculus 3 class, but then again it was community college. Nonetheless it was transferable to the university I wanted.
The great part is the way I got through math was from me teaching myself years prior. I hate it. I am overfilled with delusions and people I like I drive away.
The sad part about me is that I am able to do all this math but feel like a failure. Because technically I am one.
I did great freshman year and sophomore year. 3.7 GPA. I was in a competitive school. Then I moved to a public and then my grades plummeted. Idk what happened. Maybe that’s when depression came or it was projects. Idk.
In HS I learned a lot and in sophomore year I wanted to skip to calculus 3 before I moved. I did learn up to diff geo. Still haven’t learned 2 subjects, but college will do that.
Anybody else mentally afflicted undergrad math students or in STEM.
I hate bipolar and I hate this a lot. I look like an idiot because of how incomprehensible I am, and everyone just calls me a schizo, and it’s so hard to make sense.
It doesn’t even had to be bipolar, but some DSM V disorder. I would like to know I’m not alone. Tell me your struggles.
I just realized while talking on this board that I reached a manic state. I am pretty lost on people to talk to so I go here. I am math undergrad and taught myself a lot of math by high school.
I don’t like it like this. Though, I realized I also forgot to take medication, lamictal, for past days, and when I take it I get depression.
I like pure math and hated high school because I couldn’t focus on classes, I would do amazing in my math but get Ds in Spanish and Cs in English. I made it to Calculus 3 and linear algebra by senior year and got a 95% on my Calculus 3 class, but then again it was community college. Nonetheless it was transferable to the university I wanted.
The great part is the way I got through math was from me teaching myself years prior. I hate it. I am overfilled with delusions and people I like I drive away.
The sad part about me is that I am able to do all this math but feel like a failure. Because technically I am one.
I did great freshman year and sophomore year. 3.7 GPA. I was in a competitive school. Then I moved to a public and then my grades plummeted. Idk what happened. Maybe that’s when depression came or it was projects. Idk.
In HS I learned a lot and in sophomore year I wanted to skip to calculus 3 before I moved. I did learn up to diff geo. Still haven’t learned 2 subjects, but college will do that.
Anybody else mentally afflicted undergrad math students or in STEM.
I hate bipolar and I hate this a lot. I look like an idiot because of how incomprehensible I am, and everyone just calls me a schizo, and it’s so hard to make sense.
It doesn’t even had to be bipolar, but some DSM V disorder. I would like to know I’m not alone. Tell me your struggles.
