>>12354896>tfw suicidal ex junkie turned mdNobody else here finds this extremely impressive? Insane drive.
Addiction is very hard to fight, most people quickly find themselves on the wrong side of a coffin lid, but here you are, working hard to make something of yourself.
>i try to talk to people and colleagues but am just a toxic person i think, not that i say anything weird or offensive, i just get nervous and start spouting trivia that bores people and makes me look like an ass holeNo easy fix for being a sperg, trust me on that one. Keep cautiously trying to put yourself out there, get some practice.
>>12359387>Lastly, I think you would benefit from regular sessions with a therapist.>i was thinking of making an appointmentI agree with this, and that you should also try to build up a healthy routine to keep yourself from straying, and help deal with the stress from school.
I have a great friend who I've known since he was in his second or third year of medschool almost a decade ago, and I know how grueling the workload can get.
You must still make an effort to take care of yourself - work out regularly (or just jog, to start), cook some nice meals for yourself whenever you can, and try to enjoy nature and the simpler pleasures of life if you're not too busy prepping for exams.
Don't be embarrassed to go see a movie or eat at a nice restaurant by yourself every now and then!
>all i ever wanted was to have a gf/wife that's also a doctor so we could share the experience and be able to talk things through and discuss stuff and help each othermedschool won't be easy, but it'll be worth it - most doctors I know (quite a few) are married to other doctors because few other people can understand what the career (more like lifestyle) is like, and I don't see why you wouldn't be able to find someone :)
