I think I might have schizophrenia /sci/
please tell me if it's true or not.
I'm filled with dread.
I don't know what to do or how to ask for help.
just help me actually diagnose this.
It all started when I played sportso ballo in HS. I move up into varsity and got a serious concussion after practicing with the center. Then my behavior started to change. I felt like a prisoner in my body being controlled by someone else, someone bad, animal like. I stopped going to practice, I stopped being social. I had one friend, who i was very mean to. I ended up beating her up for no real reason, it just happened. I didn't think, it just happened. the after legal stuff and almost going to prison, I started to feel more like myself, at least I was capable of thinking again. I went into a moral dilemma. I felt terrible and suicidal about my actions. I still do. But I become very neurotic, very introverted, and very reclusive. I developed a great paranoia and anxiety. I began having violent panic attacks where I would break things and hurt myself. I don't like people, especially when they look at me. I'm very aggressive, and I criticize people's subliminal behavior greatly.
I once saw a mom in the park scratch her armpit and I called her a fat whore, then she got mad and I started screaming at her that she was a fat pathetic ugly whore. then I ran away.
I constantly think I'm being stalked by people, like he government maybe. I have tape over my webcams.
but recently I've been perceiving events in my memory that didn't happen.
today I thought my mum said goodbye to be and left the house but she's not been at home because she's visiting her mum. I've always had pretty bad memory problems since my bad concussion, but now it seems I'm making up memories temporarily.
is this schizophrenia?!!?!?!?
also if any math people want to talk about how every number in the neighborhood of infinity is prime and the same, please do.