>>12353908Hard to describe concisely. It's a dulling, a muddying. Like it creates too much "noise" so the whole system has a more difficult time organizing a coherent state, and therefore, there is a certain clarity, stability, and "depth" which is difficult to access. Convergent thinking is intact, divergent thinking is intact, and so forth, all the faculties are intact, but that sort of synchronized rest state where you can delve more deeply and draw all aspects into mind, is diminished. the Threads of my mind feel stuck in a state of noisy net "tension", they do not relax, and like strings ona n instrument which are too tight, you are denied the greater harmony.
Put less indirectly and in more concrete terms, the first thing I noticed was changes in semi-random output and pattern generation, which I was using for certain visualization based creative endeavors. I started getting very different results, which I saw and still see as relatively ugly. For a while I lost the ability to feel when I was being watched. I've gradually developed ataxia and parkinson's-like symptoms that come and go. More susceptible to stress and fatigue. Issues with spatial reasoning. A lot of things just changed, the whole "frame" changed.
It's hard to separate out a few different things which were happening at the same time, but those seem to be clearly attributable after-effects. Overall I feel singed and a tad bit burnt. It had an uglifying effect on the world, and whatever in me previously felt bored, detached, and apathetic, for a while was amplified several fold. I think this is either genetic issues with elimination, or diet-induced high levels of Mg and Zn.
