>>12354815For me it was the worst experience of my life up until that point (and 90% of the ones that were worse after that were also induced by LSD and/or other psychedelics).
I had never felt any guilt or shame or remorse for how I had led my life, socially or financially (I benefited greatly from my parents' financial support and they had such high hopes for me). All of it, years and years of either not feeling it or repressing it without my knowing it came spilling out until at one point I felt all of it. Fucking all of it. It was crushing.
I went to bed to try and sleep (at about the 3-hour mark, so I had a comfy 9 fucking hours of this left and I didn't know it at the time, I took LSD really uninformed), it didn't work and it got worse and worse until I had my head under the blankets, my hands on my ears, begging for it to stop and swearing to myself that "I'd never do drugs ever ever again". I thought I was going to go insane and end up in a mental institute and it was exactly that feeling that started my life from that point onward. Either I would go insane, or I would start tackling my problems, immediately.
And I did.
Ironically, in the long run, it also made me less vulnerable to any feelings of shame or guilt I have felt in life, because it was so intense. Minor social misunderstandings, mistakes I make in my professional or personal life, anything, it never bothered me again as it had always bothered me. I had felt so inadequate with myself all my life and LSD made me feel really comfortable with who and what I was. It resolved a lot of my social anxiety issues stemming from my autism as well.
If you're curious about trying it, don't expect this to happen, or don't expect it to happen, but you have to understand that anything is possible, even the most hellish fucking shit (and it can and probably will get millions of times worse than the trip I've described above). If you end up trying it, I recommend 100micrograms.
