I like math but only when it makes sense to me. Why can't it make sense more often it's simply not fair god FUCKING DAMMIT I JUST WANT TO BE A MATHEMATICIAN BUT I'M NEVER GONNA MAKE IT WITH THIS SHITTY BRAIN OF MINE. LONG TERM MEMORY IS COMPLETELY UNRELIABLE. WORKING MEMORY IS LITERALLY 25TH PERCENTILE (I've tested it). SPATIAL REASONING IS NOTHING SPECIAL EITHER. ALL OF UNDERGRAD HAS BEEN ONE COPE AFTER ANOTHER AS I CONTINUALLY GET MEDIOCRE GRADES AND ATTRIBUTE IT TO BAD STUDY HABITS BUT NO IT WAS ACTUALLY PURE INCOMPETENCE PLAIN AND SIMPLE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH JUST GIVE UP ALREADY YOU FUCKING RETARD. I EVEN STRUGGLED WITH LINEAR ALGEBRA, THE MOST TRIVIAL BRANCH OF MATH ACCORDING TO AT LEAST TWO /SCI/POSTERS. CHANGE OF BASIS STILL CONFUSES ME TO THIS DAY REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE