Just took a modafinil and sipping on some strong coffee after a 2 week break from all drugs / doing no fap. I’m coming back to life... I’m coming back to life... I can think coherent thoughts again. I want to take over the world again, music sounds good again, I feel like cleaning my room again, I feel like learning programming again.
UNFORTUNATELY. I know this good feeling won’t last. Anytime I feel good my brain down regulates the dopamine receptors until I start wanting more and more coffee and drugs to feel good. Then I come off everything and lie in bed for a week.
1 hour ago felt ugly and retarded now I feel powerful and chad even if I’m looking at the same thing in the mirror. I love dopamine. I wish I could be “high” all the time. Life would be so easy.
UNFORTUNATELY. I know this good feeling won’t last. Anytime I feel good my brain down regulates the dopamine receptors until I start wanting more and more coffee and drugs to feel good. Then I come off everything and lie in bed for a week.
1 hour ago felt ugly and retarded now I feel powerful and chad even if I’m looking at the same thing in the mirror. I love dopamine. I wish I could be “high” all the time. Life would be so easy.
