>>12302039Im 100 percent sure i have executive dysfunction disorder
Because not only do i procastrinate, i do it no matter at what cost
I could write several post here, listing all the shit i fucked up in my life
Like, preparing a whole year to do a show in front of 1000 people, and when the time comes to actually do it i just be like - naaah we can do it in an hour before the show - shit like that
I hit myself, i cried, i tried to kill myself..
And like last year i got to learn a bit about psychology
And i did have adhd my whole life but i didnt think that was related
I like, had to start school a year later than all my friends because of that
But only last year i found out about executive function disorder
Took me a year to finally make myself call up a psych
And im psyched, because if im right, he will just give me ritalin and poof all the problems are gone and i get to keep my hyperfocus
Pray for me anons that i get ritalin, because i cannot afford cognitive behaviour therapy, poppin pills is easier
Also i tried modafinil once for shits and giggles - got a massive headache but i worked ! I never, NEVER would work with a headache i would always be like oh no my head hurts a little he he time for a nap
But on modafinil i worked 4 days straight without no bullshit, with ok focus and without the constant irritations and anger, even with a fucking headache i was just happy to get shit done, without making a pause every 15 minutes..
