/sci/, I think I have either bipolar II or cyclothymia, but both my psychiatrist and my psychologist say otherwise and their reasoning doesn't make sense

long story short, I have depressive episodes and I have episodes with increased mood, rapid speech, racing thoughts, and heightened creativity, but no negative side-effects. Wikipedia says that's hypomanic episodes, but both treatment providers insist It's not hypomania, but refused to provide explain what it is. When pressured, they start telling me it's excitement, but that's completely wrong. It's far too intense. It's extremely obvious to me and everyone else around me that it's an altered mental state, but they just tell me I'm too depressed to recognize my own excitement

I feel like I'm being gaslighted, and it's not like the people I'm seeing are mormons or scientologists. Something isn't right, but I don't know what it is