>be lazy and depressed smartfag at top 50 university
>cope by getting good at vidya and listening to obscure music
>eventually change major to neurobiology with physics minor
>junior year hits, realize my gpa is average 3.0 and my only accomplishment in life is hitting t500 in overwatch
>no one cares about intelligence if you're lazy as fuck. depression intensifies.
>binge jordan peterson and elon musk videos on youtube, become super motivated and decide I will be elon v2, but for transhumanism
>getting straight As now
>decide to add biomedical engineering minor because I want to know how engineers think about problems
>decide to stay an extra year to turn physics minor into physics major, requires taking 2 years worth of 400 level physics classes in one year but I'm big dick rick so no problem right
>might as well add a math minor while I'm at it
>might as well do deep learning research for a computational mathematics group while I'm at it
>next step will be computational neuroscience PhD program, aiming for top 5 STEM university
>now one quarter through the extra year for physics, and motivation is dwindling
>80 hour workweeks between lectures and homeworks and studying
>I feel obligated to go to grad school at this point but I don't want to stay in academia. just wanted a PhD for the clout, maybe then people would care about my mediocre startup ideas
>have midterms for physics classes next week and don't feel like studying. don't feel like doing anything except beating off and watching youtube garbage really
>depressed again, but now jordan peterson and elon musk are stale.
The closer I get to grad school the more it looks like a meme. But I don't even know what jobs I would look for with degrees in Neuro and Physics. It feels like there's no point now, I don't even know if I want to apply for PhD programs. Is this just normal burnout? How can I fix it? Or should I just say fuck it and try a startup in whatever seems viable?
>cope by getting good at vidya and listening to obscure music
>eventually change major to neurobiology with physics minor
>junior year hits, realize my gpa is average 3.0 and my only accomplishment in life is hitting t500 in overwatch
>no one cares about intelligence if you're lazy as fuck. depression intensifies.
>binge jordan peterson and elon musk videos on youtube, become super motivated and decide I will be elon v2, but for transhumanism
>getting straight As now
>decide to add biomedical engineering minor because I want to know how engineers think about problems
>decide to stay an extra year to turn physics minor into physics major, requires taking 2 years worth of 400 level physics classes in one year but I'm big dick rick so no problem right
>might as well add a math minor while I'm at it
>might as well do deep learning research for a computational mathematics group while I'm at it
>next step will be computational neuroscience PhD program, aiming for top 5 STEM university
>now one quarter through the extra year for physics, and motivation is dwindling
>80 hour workweeks between lectures and homeworks and studying
>I feel obligated to go to grad school at this point but I don't want to stay in academia. just wanted a PhD for the clout, maybe then people would care about my mediocre startup ideas
>have midterms for physics classes next week and don't feel like studying. don't feel like doing anything except beating off and watching youtube garbage really
>depressed again, but now jordan peterson and elon musk are stale.
The closer I get to grad school the more it looks like a meme. But I don't even know what jobs I would look for with degrees in Neuro and Physics. It feels like there's no point now, I don't even know if I want to apply for PhD programs. Is this just normal burnout? How can I fix it? Or should I just say fuck it and try a startup in whatever seems viable?
