Does this curve kill you and make you feel dead inside? I remember enjoying simple pleasures. A change of seasons. First snow. Rain. Sunsets. Autumn leaves. Traveling. Now I am looking at formulas trying to push my limits of knowledge. Shit is so evasive as it is addictive. And I am stuck at the valley of despair. I haven't achieved anything other than constant anxiety. And I can't let go. How do I go back ??? I want to be dumb and have high confidence and enjoy simple things in life again.