>>12090818Yes it will absorb some shock from reaching vital organs. Your terminal velocity is actually lower than that of a skinny person.
Unfortunately that tower is not a height from which terminal velocity may be reached. Your excess mass will actually make you hit the ground at a higher velocity because wind resistance will be less able to slow you down.
In addition, as a man of heft surgery is more difficult as complications are more likely to arise. Recovery in the hospital is also less likely because of various issues ranging from a weaker immune system to cumulative stress already placed on internal organs from excess visceral fat.
The brain is an organ like any other. Mental illness compromises the ability of the brain to make rational decisions. Much like a schizophrenic has no choice to believe their hallucinations, a person with depression has no choice but to believe their delusions of worthlessness. Get help OP. That means going to a doctor and talking about what you're thinking of doing.
It's hard, god I know it's hard. At my lowest point I couldn't get out of bed for 4 days and it took all my energy and willpower just to get up to use the restroom. After which, I would often curl up on the cold floor until I was ready to go back to bed. I didn't feel like using the computer because I derived no joy from the internet anymore and couldn't justify getting up and turning it on.
If you don't have a primary physician you regularly see, there's nothing abnormal with walking into a clinic and telling them you would like to see a doctor.
If you can't afford paying for anything, go to the emergency room and explain that you have depression. Worst case scenario you'll be placed under observation for 48-72 hours. You can easily avoid this by explaining that you came there looking for help, it would cause more stress in your life to be locked up, and that you DO NOT have a plan for suicide. Ask for an indigent care application to avoid paying.
