>>12083444You're right, I probably should go back to the beginning. I failed mechanics and multivariable for not knowing onevariable. I failed differential equations for not knowing numerical analysis and linear algebra.
I shit you not I spent 10 hours solving exercises in numerical analysis yesterday, and didn't even cognitively exert myself because I've failed so much that there's no negative emotion to be had anymore in regards to the possibility of failure when trying to work at something. I'm a lot better at code than before, but I still haven't even gotten to the actual meat of the course.
I've been doing the old exercises for numerical analysis and when I got stuck with those I got two certifications within matlab, one for ordinary differential equations and the other for linear algebra, To sort of keep rolling with something related to what I need to do when I got stuck with the exercises.
I failed onevariable because of those negative emotions every time I sat down to work, basically there's so many small little things to know it's almost like an impossibly long list of accounting to be able to do one variable for me, or thats the idea I have. Like the shit is so small and simple but I got so frustrated when not knowing something small or how to find out what to do that my motivation was killed. What I really lacked was a foundation. Like I needed to do precalculus for weeks probably and then I would be ready. I looked at the preparatory course our uni has the other day and there were many concepts I dont even know so I guess I've got to fill those potholes
I failed linear algebra because I was just delusional and didn't even know what the course was about past the intro stuff. You cant know youre bad at something if you dont even know what the thing is.
