>>12055819That's sort of the problem. I don't have impostor syndrome, I think I'm qualified, I think I'm a good fit, hell, I even think I probably had a better resume and interview than most of the other applicants. I've been in labs where I got shouted down though and I have shakey hands and generally I overthink things to the point of significantly losing efficiency. I'm pretty sure that I'm at least reasonably intelligent, but I don't have the same confidence that basically most people I know do. Hence, I just feel like I'm destined to fuck up, whether that be by spilling an expensive reagent, breaking some expensive instruments, being timid and annoying to the point where the people in the lab don't like me, maybe even accidentally typing "nigger" in the lab group text. Maybe I should just go to work drunk.
I've actually been getting along quite well with everyone so far but I still feel like I'm walking on thin ice.
