>did well in school
>had no interest in my degree and put no effort in to it
>now have an ok but braindead job
>want to learn programming in my free time but the IQ meme has crushed my motivation

I've never had an IQ test but I worry that if I'm not effortlessly doing stuff then I am a non-high IQer who is wasting his time. I can't even bear to start learning to programme or learning math or anything.