oh my God, misophonia is the absolute fucking worst. it's very hard to tell my true feelings on certain things bc the emotion association is hijacked by misophonia. e.g. I will never have a dog because they make absolutely disgusting licking and slobbering and breathing noises. it's completely psychological because different people in my life set off my misophonia to differing degrees. for people I hate, even hearing them softly breath just disgusts me immensely.
it's so hard to explain to normies. like for minor-normal slobbering noises that people do for eating, my emotional response is about the same as if someone is repeatedly bumping into me or kickng my foot. like the first time, fine, second time alright, but I get ENRAGED shortly if it just keeps going on and on. you know how you got your head on something and then get massive instant overpowering anger but you also rationally know you shouldn't be angry at anything? or when you're extremely hungry or cranky, I'd say hearing gross noises puts me in that mind set
for really obscene slobbering disgusting noises, imagine sucking a piece of ramen or pulpy mango flesh from the seed, I have physical involuntary recoil. I'm backing away and physically cringing before I even consciously know what I'm hearing.
the odd thing is that misophonia disproportionately affects women, which I don't know why it would be that way.
