>>>11956658>Yeah I'm 25. I fucked up a lot of things in my 18-24 period. A lot of big opportunities were afforded to me but I fucked everything up.Same age, same wasted time, I think about these regrets every night, realizing that I wasted opportunities I won't have again.
I work a high paying CS job and I fucking hate it. I make more money than I ever thought I would in my life, I have connections up the ass, and I am just an impulsive child.
If I quit I annihilate my career. I quit now my resume is destroyed and I'd be lucky to make a third of what I do now if I ever wanted to come back to the field, assuming I even find a job. I want to walk away every day but I know there is almost no fucking scenario where I would end up better for it.
Every damn person who is trapped by their job feels the same way. They feel like where they are is the best they could get.
I'm becoming a moneymaxxing asshole. I feel like shit because I only make 150k a year, because I'm fucking 3 years too old to be a junior dev, because I wasted my life and still am, but is there really anything else to life than work?
The boomer in that post might have fucked up and probably feared the sheer ruin of throwing away their life and it not paying off.
I'm less than a year into my office job and I legit can't fucking take it. I drink almost ten times as often as I used to.
I don't give a shit about any of this but I also just don't want to work. I know if I put in my 5 years I could take a year or two break with little consequence, but I don't think I could mentally handle 5 more years of working full time.
The issue is that any single risk I take away from this would ruin me financially. I am a worthless human with literally nothing going for myself except that I make a decent amount of money. This is all I have going for me because I'm fucking worthless. I'd throw away the only good part of myself to fail again if I did anything else.
Shit. Guess I'm drinking tonight again.
