>>11910176I used to discount it completely because I saw the local and US fundies, and thought (still think) they are retarded and that Christianity is about the inquisition, hating gays, persecuting everyone, etc. Then I got interested in history, realized I need to know more about Christianity from that perspective. Eventually learned that Christianity is completely different from the whole "burn scientists kill heretics" thing. Started talking about it with my acquaintances, learned that several of them went from atheists (lots of atheists - exUSSR country) to believers. These are rational, smart people, some are in STEM.
This all coincided with me learning of the limits, and of dogmaticism, of our current scientific understanding (combo of studying human physiology and drawing parallels from history of science).
On top of that, even before all that, I personally experienced a decrease in anxiety when I shifted my worldview to "God is real" frame. Didn't use it much because I thought I was just lying to myself and there's science to tell me the truth. Well it turned out science doesn't know the truth and won't know it during my lifetime, so I decided it won't hurt to at least try to get the psychological benefits, even if it's just self-delusion. So I sincerely believed and prayed.
So, well, basically, it worked for several weeks. Better relationships with people, calmer. Then it REALLY worked. I got hit with like 2 days of MDMA like feeling, but without being energized or talkative. If I am to be skeptical, I can blame it on changing weather (thunderstorms to sunny at the time), but I never felt that before. It was too intense to discount. Looking back to that, it happened couple months ago, it's hard to believe, but I have no reason to doubt it happened. Those rational acquaintances reported a sorta similar experience. So now I unironically feel born again. Still not yelling about gays or anything. Nobody but 4chan actually knows about this.
